The True Love

i have spent time drowning, not trusting, looking over my shoulder, and yet also peering ahead, wondering when hurt was coming again. Who i have let down, who i can disappoint again, what failures i will stagger through. And then suddenly arrives this burst of sun, suddenly spanning the sky from front to back is a rainbow, filled with colors i have never seen before, and my eyes are open, and im not a failure, and im not worthless and unlovable, and im not all the bad things i thought i was. There You were, pulling me up and out, uniting our lives and creating oneness between us and soothing my soul with Your nurturing. We live an exciting, kinky, fun life. But beneath it all You are my life partner, the One, the Man of my dreams and the Keeper of my heart. i couldn’t possibly drown now, not when You’ve made me so buoyant. 💖

The True Love by David Whyte

There’s a faith in loving fiercely the one who is rightfully yours
especially if you have waited years and especially if part of you never
believed you could deserve this loved and beckoning hand held
out to you this way.

I am thinking of faith now and the testaments of loneliness
and what we feel we are worthy of in this world.
Years ago in the Hebrides I remember an old man
who would walk every morning on the gray stones
to the shore of baying seals, who would press his
hat to his chest in the blustering salt wind and say his
prayer to the turbulent Jesus hidden in the waters.

And I think of the story of the storm and the people
waking and seeing the distant, yet familiar figure,
far across the water calling to them.
And how we are all preparing for that abrupt waking
and that calling and that moment when we have to say yes!
Except it will not come so grandly, so biblically,
but more subtly, and intimately in the face
of the one you know you have to love.
So that when we finally step out of the boat
toward them we find, everything holds us,
and everything confirms our courage.

And if you wanted to drown, you could,
But you don’t, because finally, after all
this struggle and all these years,
you don’t want to anymore.
You’ve simply had enough of drowning
and you want to live, and you want to love.
And you’ll walk across any territory,
and any darkness, however fluid,
and however dangerous to take the one
hand and the one life, you know belongs in yours.

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