Category: Blog

The intoxication of helplessness

when darkness closes inneedy and earnesthollowness overflows andthings take on a certain sparklebreaths come quickerhands clawing and graspingreaching for an unseenbrick wallto lash out and kick the unyielding structureto feel the roughness on my skinto scrape my cheek against its concrete solidity and coolnessto…

Little birds and flying away

Loss is a weird thing. Whether you expect it for years, or it happens overnight, it rams you square in the chest and takes your breath away with grief. When my sister died it all happened very suddenly. i got a call that she…

clothespins

Way back when we were writing a post about pervertables, Daddy and i took a shopping trip. We jokingly decided we would see just how many things we could pervert, and i flippantly tossed a packet of clothespins into the basket. Fast forward to…

i need it to hurt

those were the words i gasped out during our most recent scene. They popped into my head unbidden, and i felt instantly mortified. But no matter how hard i pushed myself toward the edge, i couldn’t come without telling Him… i needed it to…

D/s wife, happy life.

starting the week off right, fresh bread, boobies, and a lovely morning romp.  

coming out as a sex blogger

On our vacation i may or may not have let it slip to my best friend that we have a sex blog. i didn’t intend to share that information, but as we sat in our tent late one night having drank too much wine,…

admissions

We have returned safely from our vacation, and i have something to confess: i am so small. Like infinitely tiny and insignificant. And i guess in many ways, this applies to our dynamic of lifestyle married D/s and DDlg, but really it applies to…

The things i can’t control

i can’t control that the package delivery man doesn’t ring the bell when he comes to deliver packages. i can’t control the fact that i can’t call a local number to complain, so am faced with calling an out of country customer support number…

the gray rock

As i have previously shared, i am on a journey of healing from narcissistic abuse and trauma stemming from a young age. It took a lot of time, learning, counseling, and mindfulness, and i am not healed yet, but i am much better than…

Lovely little ribbon collars

i have written about my collection of collars several times, but have never really gotten into the details of my collars, what they mean to me, and where i got them! Tonight i want to introduce you to my friend Brittany. Brittany is an…

i am big… in a giant world

That is what i have been announcing to Daddy lately. It makes me laugh. Because that still makes me little. But it sort of normalizes things for me. Daddy says i am the tiniest of all, and pinches my bottom, when i try to…

in it

i am not normal. This is what is running in the background of my mind, like 90% of the time. i don’t know where exactly this thought comes from, but it has been there as long as i can remember. It isn’t like i…